Breaking Free

-You are my light and my salvation, so why am I afraid? 27:1 My heart is afraid to feel again. Is it a mind thing or am I really afraid? My poor heart is locked up, like in a dungeon.It is surrounded by the memories of pain. As the blood flows through my veins surrounding my heart, it pushes the wire fence deeper and deeper where it reminds me not to feel anything but pain.My heart tries to cry out, but gets stuck in my throat. I want to cut my throat so you can hear the cries. It needs to be heard, but again, Im afraid. My heart wants to be able to be free like a Dove and fly, fly away and be free. It wants to be able to relax and understand the meaning of trust and love. It wants to be laid in Your hands and to able to feel the wind blow, feel the sun shine and to breathe.Another sharp pain, and the happiness goes away. Still in the same place.It was only a dream. A dream. When will this dream come true? My heart has Faith and knows You are looking for us, to relieve this pain. Nothing can cure this pain but the sound of Your voice and the touch of Your hands.My heart and I will not be afraid one day. We count the seconds that go by that Your coming.Believing in You and God are the only thing keeping us alive.So if You can, please hurry because this pain is killing us.>I need You...I want You...I Love You...I won't be afraid to Love You.