Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Randomly thinking..

I'm sitting on the couch with one twin in my lap who is sprawled all over me and has fallen asleep, one twin in the rock-n-play asleep and my 3 year old in her room. I'm starting at the twins thinking, 'how did I get this lucky?', 'what does my life have in-store now?', 'how can I show them equal love  and not favor one more than the other?'...so many questions. And I ha e no answer but to go day by day. When I was I pregnant with my 1st, I told myself what we would have planned in the next 2, 4, 6 years ahead of us. But when the twins surprised us, I don't think about the future anymore. I'm cherishing every day like it's my last with these girls.
Then I think, how can I love these girls equally? They each have a different personality already! 3 year old loves to play, twin L loves to snuggle and twin R likes the attention. They are perfect in God's eyes and I pray everyday I can give them the love and show them love, like my mother did and has for my sister and I.
Being a mom of twins is awesome. It's like a inner self challenge with myself seeing what I can prove to the world I can do. And then being a mom of all girls,  is stressful lol. Thinking of the future for dresses,  dates, weddings, cars.....i guess that's why I don't think in the future no more lol!! The only thing I wish is, i wish I had a 3rd arm so I could hold all 3 girls at one time 💜
The best thing in my accomplishments so far, is carrying 3 beautiful girls that I get to call mine, forever! Xoxo

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