Monday, February 2, 2009
Forever
When I see your face, i freeze up like a statue. Time goes by like it should but my body stands here like a tree. I feel the wind and I hear voices, but my nerves and my brain are not connected.
As I force myself to act normal, a million memories wash over my body like a dam busting through the walls. I get so hot that it makes me feel like I am in the desert, dying due to the heat.
I get weak in the knees and it feels like I have no knee-caps. Where did they go? You can say one word and that side grin, and all the air i sucked in to remind me I need to breath, is knocked out of me like being punched out of me over and over again.
You wave your hand and the memories of holding that hand flashes through like a slid-show. Remembering every moment, the feel of you squeezing my hand, making me smile, puts a smile on my face. Which is good because you think im smiling at you.
Step by step and we are getting closer. Looking into your eyes, knowing and preparing for the consequence, I melt inside and out. Why and how did I get like this?
Has God done this for a reason?
One year, a hunderds miles away and not being able to see you, everythings changed. I don't think about you because I have moved on.
Im so thankful that God put you in my life and that He gave us the experiense of eachothers presence. We helped eachother out in so many ways that all I can say is that you are truly a blessing.
You were put in my life for some crazy reason God thought would help, and He was right. Now when I see you, I feel the love of friendship that can not be broken or torn down.
Everywhere I go, there is a piece of you in me and you will be wherever I go. I will smile and laugh inside, but will always be thinking of you as my best friend.
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"i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
ReplyDeletemy heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)"
This is a poem by ee cummings. It's my favorite ever, and I just felt the need to share.
Thank you, thank you for writing this. It's beautiful and something I needed to hear.
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