Some days really sucks for me. I feel like a single mom of 3 girls cause the "hubs" works nights to support us. That being said there are days when I just want to give up, throw in the town, say what I really want to say to some people-even though it'll hurt their feelings and quit my job. But I can't.
I absolutely hate that I don't get to spend all day with my kids. I'm not mad at my mom for watching my kids, I'm absolutely jealous of her, in a good way. She gets to spend 8+ hours with them during the day, making memories, laughing, changing poopy diapers but that's suppose to be my job.
I absolutely hate that this society and economy has it where woman who want to be a stay at home mom (SAHM), can't! We have to help pay the damn bills. When I get off my 8-430 job, I only get 4-5 hours then it's bed then mornings all over again.
I absolutely love the weekends. I cherish every minute of spending time with them.
When I start to think about how jealous I am of my mom, I take a breathe and think I'm very thankful for her. Without her, if be paying my whole 2 wk paycheck for daycare for one week! Which that is absolutely ridiculous! I wouldn't be able to help pay the bills without her but then it's like a cycle again, I get mad cause of bills being so freaking expensive and high. Then I think how in the world are you suppose to spend time with family when you work 8 hour shifts starting at wee bit in the morning til almost dark and having other people/centers watch/take care of your family/kids. It absolutely sucks.
If I had a wish, I wish I could stay at home and watch my beautiful girls grow. So enough venting cause I feel little better, still sad, I'll pray one day I will get to be a SAHM!
I've started to be an online ambassador for BOD and I pray this takes off for me to be making a profit and I can quit my full-time job. Let's see where it leads!!
Xx
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